Archive for November, 2008

28
Nov

this song is for…

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Categories: In Harmony

… all those “signigicant” beings who were there during the lowest time of my life… you never failed to be there when i needed you most…i am getting up and moving on now..and it’s all because of you…thank you so much guys! May God bless you as always!

YOU CHANGED MY LIFE IN A MOMENT

The nights sky was filled with clouds
My worried mind was filled with fear
I couldn’t count all the lonely hours
Spent with memories and tears

I never thought I would see the day
When I could throw all my sorrow away
But then you came and you showed me the way
You have made all those times disappear

CHORUS:
You changed my life in a moment
And I’ll never be the same again
You changed my life in a moment
And it’s hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone (is gone…is gone…is gone…)

I never thought that I could change
Could change so much in so many ways
I’m still surprised when I look in my mirror
To see that I still look the same

CHORUS:
You changed my life in a moment
And I’ll never be the same again
You changed my life in a moment
And it’s hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone

(You changed my life in a moment)
You changed my life
(And I’ll never be the same again)
I’ll never be the same
You changed my life in a moment
And it’s hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone

(You changed my life in a moment)
Gone…gone..
In a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone…

23
Nov

Change

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Categories: LiFe ChUVa and ReFLeCtioNs

There is nothing permanent in this world but change! Isn’t it ironic? Can’t do anything about it but to accept this paradox.

Honestly, I am quite sceptic with this cliché, until I experienced a big change in my life.I may say the biggest since my 3-decade existence in this planet.

I have been to situations which I thought would remain through perpetuity as well as met mortals that I considered would never change despite the circumstances that I’ve/ they’ve been going through.But change is inevitable and it makes life and so with the future, kind of funny.Change arrives unannounced, in the most unexpected time.It reshapes the future into a pattern, a pattern which is not so apparent to me at the start. It gives me a blurry vision of what lies ahead and figuring out what causes change is frustrating, and especially when answers to all my questions are not on hand. The long wait for all my questions to be answered and processing myself to accept that change is really taking place caused me pain and no matter what I’ll do, I can’t turn back time.

Despite the hurting inside, I still have the power of optimism in me. I observed that change does make me become a better, stronger person. I have the people who love me unconditionally as much as I love them. I also met better persons! But still, I am all alone here! And I only have myself and God to rely on! In the end, I am still the one who decides how to manage things and I have to settle issues on my own.

Change strengthens my faith in Him.I start each day with a talk (perhaps a prayer) to Him and self-persuasion (!)- that God has in store for me something better or best and I have to make full use of this opportunity to study here in a far-off place.I believe He is preparing me for a more challenging episode of my life.

I don’t have to wait for everything and everyone to be just right so that I will be alright! For they will never be perfect, and there will always be changes, challenges and unfortunate events.I have to decide that now is the time to get up, to be stronger, improve my expertise in dealing life’s circumstances and enhance my self- confidence! For change will visit me from time to time, so I have to be ready, else if I am caught unguarded, it will crumble the whole of me! And definitely, I won’t allow this to happen!

23
Nov

According to Socrates…

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Categories: ReFLeCtioNs

….an unexamined life is not worthliving…

I am attending Sunday masses at Kapistran Church.  This morning, after the homily, Fr. Ron called for a moment of silence to reflect on the gospel.  The first time since I was here that we had a little bit longer time to reflect.  I am so immersed in that reflection exercise and I really felt like crying.  It’s when all my bitterness sets in and all I did was submit everything to HIM.  What made the setting more emotional was when the pianist played one of my favourite songs of Don Moen- Lord You Are Good.  I really love the melody!

I went home after the mass feeling a bit more relieved from all my baggage.  I thank God for giving me the chance to think about what’s going on in me. I am praying for God’s grace that this feeling of deliverance will continue on as I keep on moulding myself according to THY will.

It’s worth to have a look at myself now and then, to check if I am really living according to Thy will and be certain that I am having a life which is worth-living!

By the way, I just wanna share the lyrics of the song:

LORD YOU ARE GOOD

Where would I be
If You had not been by my side
How could I rise to meet
The morning of the day
Your tender mercy
Always calling from behind
At times I could not see You
Even though You were close by

Chorus:
Lord You are good
You are good
And Your mercy forever endures
Lord You are good
You are good
And Your mercy forever endures

Help me to see Your loving kindness
Help me to see You as You are
Help me to see Your loving kindness
Help me to see You as You are
As You really really are

12
Nov

Siglo and Gahum

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Categories: In Harmony

Siglo and Gahum

Tears rolled down my cheeks…. I am almost shattered and there you are! We haven’t met for years and we are just mere acquaintances before, yet I feel so unperturbed at that very moment when I needed a soul to unload the baggage in me and you are there…You helped me wipe away the tears and lend me your ears and that mean so much to me! You made a big difference in a disheartened me!

I won’t consider our meeting a coincidence but I believe ‘twas fate that directed me to you… I am really comforted that you sympathize with what I am feeling the past days.  I never knew that you also had the same rain in your lives before.  You were such worthy examples that despite the rain, there is still that golden sunshine to look forward to. I may get soaked again from few sprinkles but this I promise you- I’ll do my best to make it through the rain!

Someway, you taught my heart to be at peace despite the rough sea I am sailing and sustained me to keep me drifting to where I am heading.

I am looking forward to seeing you.  Thank you so much for the “new” but sincere friendship and for drawing me nearer to Him!

10
Nov

Ang Suwat

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Categories: In Harmony

My dearest ATEs-HOUSEMATES in The Big Sister’s House,

‘Twas years ago when I came as a new housemate. I was nervous. I might be evicted earlier for you will vote me out.Fortunately, unlike that of reality TVs, there were no strict rules to be followed in the house that might hold me back to prove who really I am!As a newcomer, you might have noticed that I was that timid and so silent then (murag itoy..wa pa man si Tisoy that time).Actually, I was just analyzing how I should behave or situate myself being new and also the youngest (aheem!).

My first moments with you went quite well.I didn’t find it hard knowing you more.It’s a pleasant experience that the getting-to-know segment was so spontaneous.I really don’t feel like I am a total stranger in the house for it seems that we have already met ages before.

I can be myself when I am with you without the fear of being judged.You accepted me for who I am. You listen to my stories- with sense or even without sense (non-stop sahay! pasensya na po! ! It’s quite fun that we can be silly and carefree sometimes, that we seem to forget how old we are (or you are?hehehe)!You are such good mirrors to me- revealing to me things that I failed to see in me and the world around me.The reflection may not always be positive but I felt it, without you knowing, you also wanted me to grow. With you, I am free to put across my thoughts and being respected despite my age. You doubled my joys and divided my sorrows.I am really happy having you guys around when I am at the lowest points of my life, and I will never forget that. You were always there to wipe away my tears and cheer me up when I am down.You never failed to let me feel my worth.

And since there is no eviction, I, we stayed in the house for some time. From time to time, some housemates left and I feel sad.But I believe that wherever they are, the essence of the house- the genuine friendship, is in their midst, and one day we will have the festive atmosphere of being reunited.I never realized I will also do the same. I have no choice but to leave. I am sad but I have to spread my wings and try to see things on the other side of the world.Rest assured, I am bringing with me the memories and the lessons I learned during my stay. You’re one of my inspirations that keep me going to where I am sailing now.Whatever I will become and wherever I may set my sails, you will always be part of me, for you are not my friends but the sisters that God forgot to give me.

I implore for our upcoming reunions and the warm welcome from you.I also pray that God will grant your hearts’ desires and others will see God in you.

With lots of love, hugs and kisses,

Ana Marquiza M. Quilicot a.k.a. “Baby/ Marqui/ Quiza”

P.S.

I miss the “house humor” (a certain IQ is required!), “traffic lights” session, videoke, text message reading at 2 am (our own version of bedtime stories) and badminton! We’ll do it again soon!

One more thing. I think we didn’t leave the house…we are just extending the house to the other regions of the world! heheheh…Interntional na ang Big Sister’s House!

Gidagko nako ang font kay aron dili mo maglisud ug basa.Peace!

09
Nov

Getting my ducks in a row

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Categories: El FaVoRitO and LiFe ChUVa

Getting my ducks in a row

I lived with my family until I was 16.Living with my family made me feel so secure but dependent on one hand.I don’t have that much to worry about.Life is so simple and easier for me to organize then…

I decided to spend my college in a nearby province and life is not the same as it used to be.I faced new challenges.I made decisions all by myself.I learned how to find my own niche in the new environment, get along well with people, and win new friends. I made mistakes and have realizations out of it.I strived hard to have a balance life- learn, love and laugh as much as I could i,e. to have quality time for my studies, family, Ryan, friends and volleyball!.

Later I was blessed to shape up a career as a vet and a mentor.Doing both challenged and inspired me. As a vet, I am challenged finding out how the animal is feeling (Obviously, they can’t talk!) and providing them relief as well as dealing with their masters. I am not only accountable to these creatures and its owners, but also to my Master who gave me this opportunity and He is my great inspiration.As a mentor, my learning does not end up with the topic that I am explaining.Mentoring a number of unique individuals in one setting taught me to be more patient, flexible and respectful to the uniqueness of a person.At work, I also discovered how to convey my views without ruining the harmonious rapport that I have with my superiors and co-workers.

At this instant, I am now in a milieu- quite different to what I am used to.I am a student again in a place with a totally different culture (especially language!) and climate, and so far away from the comforts of my family and friends. I have to observe keenly how things are done here so as to integrate easily. One surprising episode of my life (which I cannot tell you the details) also forced me to accept change, to really believe in the old cliché- “the only permanent thing in this world is change”, and to survive hurting moments (and sort of some panic attacks!).

As my existence advances, there are certain points that are being disarranged.From time to time, I need to rearrange it with strength more than what causes it to be disorganized. With proper scrutiny of the circumstances, support from the significant people of my life and His grace and wisdom, I believe I can manage in “getting my ducks in a row” no matter how ghastly the water is.