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16
May

Today

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Categories: LiFe ChUVa and Sa AdLaw-AdLaw

I decided to take a break from writing my manuscript and I chose to check my horoscope for today.  I am not really into horoscopes, but sometimes, I do check it at the end of the day, just to check if what was written in there happened to me to some extent *Big grin*.  But today, since I am so wide awake at 2:42 am, I tried to take a peek of what’s in store for me today, “kuno” *Smug* . And here goes my horoscope for today:

When your schedule loosens up and presents you with a great big chunk of free time today, fill up that unexpected gap with intellectual pursuits. Pick up a thick novel, see a foreign film, or do whatever else that gets your mind really humming. This is a good time for deep thought and contemplation — it would be a shame to fritter away the hours with mindless channel-surfing, shopping or napping. You need to do something mental, something stimulating.

This made me laugh…for even before this day, without this horoscope, I know that I really need to spend most of my waking hours in intellectual pursuit chuva (now I remember my friend EJ’s text message about the word “chuva”, :D).  Weeeeee…intellectual pursuit! Seems like I am gonna be in Einstein mode until the day I will have the final approval of my manuscript.  (Sigh!) But it seems more fulfilling now, especially with every paragraph that I add on my discussion.  Fulfilling for me because recently, I realized that I successfully earned credits on a more complicated pursuit that I’ve been through lately.  And that is increasing my EQ! More complicated in the sense that I was able to identify those insignificant entities in my life without using statistical models! A little bit harder part is to get rid of those insignificant variables and keep those highly significant ones in my life! Hahaha…

Gotta go back now to my work now…

What a relevant horoscope for today and the coming days! …*winks*…

03
May

The art of saying…Auf Wiedersehen!

By hypothalamus7778 2 Comments
Categories: LiFe ChUVa

Auf Wiedersehen (owf VEE-der-say-en)…I first heard of this phrase in my all-time favourite movie- Sound of Music. It’s a German word and it means goodbye.

When I was a kid, I deal with goodbyes differently.I cried when Ate Quim leaves home for work or when Tatay and Nanay would attend athletic meets.Though I know they would be home soon.

Then I left for college and had a lot of goodbye-sessions.Waiting for the bus is a torment to me for I have to keep my tears from rolling down.I don’t want my family to see me sad especially my dear late Tatay.I am afraid of goodbyes…What if that would be the last goodbye? For every goodbye comes a prayer with me that we will be seeing each other again soon. I am so into this set up for my fourteen years of stay in Leyte.  I thought I am this expert with goodbyes…

‘Twas 2007 when I have to leave Pinas.  I had a simple despedida where all my cousins, Tiya’s and Tiyo’s were there.  It was kind of hard for me to say goodbye.  In 2008, my Tiya Upe and Tiyo Cardo passed away and unexpectedly my Tatay. It hurt me so badly.  I can’t bear the thought that I wouldn’t be able to hear and feel them when I will be home. But have to move on…else my Tatay would be disappointed.

I thought that would be all for that year. In the same year, people who are so dear to me also took part in teaching me how to say goodbye in some other way. Dealing with the situation was really hard for me and it almost mashed me to pieces.  I have to say goodbye to them when actually it is the time when I needed them the most!  But then, I can say, I am quite adept now with this kind of situation, and it made me a better, stronger person.

Now…after beating this game of “saying goodbye”, I realized what I need now…I need more HELLOs!

03
May

Forget - me - not ;)

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Categories: LiFe ChUVa and ReFLeCtioNs

I happen to accidentally open a site with a research about a drug that can eliminate traumatic memory from a person. Then I remember a phrase which is often mentioned just lately in some of my conservations - selective amnesia.  The free dictionary online defined (in toto) selective amnesia as an “amnesia about particular events that is very convenient for the person who cannot remember”.  Furthermore, there is also this posthypnotic amnesia which is a “selective amnesia after being in a hypnotic state of events occurring during hypnosis or of information designated by the hypnotist”.  These made me smile and thought of how the brains of those people who are in this kind of amnesia are working.

This state is advantageous when you met a traumatic experience or a disagreeable person (perhaps?) in your life and you want to just forget all about it.  But when it comes to friends? I doubt.  For me, friends are the siblings that God forget to give me. I am this so idealistic when it comes to friendship.  No matter what happen, true friends will always be with me.  Our communication may wane out for some time due to certain circumstances but for sure I won’t forget a person who has been a part of who I am now in just a snap of a finger. I am just so curious what’s really going on in these beings that I considered my friends (whom I assume considers me as a friend, too J) that they seem to have selective (posthypnotic) amnesia on me…Is it really a choice? And why me? Or is it because of posthypnotic amnesia incurred by a sort of effective hypnotist? I don’t have the answers for now but I believe answers will be revealed in His most perfect time.

I’d rather get back to my data… ;)

02
May

And I chose…

By hypothalamus7778 4 Comments
Categories: LiFe ChUVa

..to move on and leave those unpleasant thoughts and feelings behind…

Here is another song by Toto that I wanna share for those who love and dream of forever …but seems that forever’s never meant to happen.

I’LL BE OVER YOU

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people’s destiny
Passes by

There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
That’s how our love must be
Don’t ask why

Bridge:
It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin’
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I’ll be over you

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

Bridge:
There were the nights holding you close
Someday I’ll try to forget them
Someday I’ll be over you

02
May

This is worth to be reposted!

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Categories: El FaVoRitO and In Harmony

This is a poem written by Ate Hula about me and our friendship…

endo ang tawag ko sa knya
sa onze una ko syang nakita
hanef! sa trivia sya’y malupit!
akala ko nung una sya’y masungit!

gabi-gabi humahataw…gamer ay kinarir
akala ko nga nung una sya ay papa bear! (hihihi)
play lang kami…walang greet greet…
naalala mo ba kung pano tayo nag click???

hmmm… sa trivia ako’y iyong napabilib
’til ako’y mag “wd”… tenkz at di ka pala snobbish!
“the rest is history” ika nila…gossh! i can’t believe it!
gabi-gabi… ako na ang iyong kinakarir! lolzzz…

i heyt u mamaw alam mo yan! (hihihi)
sino ka ba talaga? bakit gaya-gaya ka! (hahaha)
sprite…chicken wings.. snoopy at iba pa!
miss ko ang ating paglalamay, hagikhikan ng walang humpay!

endo salamat sa yung time lagi kang anjan
ready to hug me pag ako’y balot ng kalungkutan
isa kang tunay na kaibigan…salamat sa yong tiwala…
makaasa ka ito’y aking iingatan at habambuhay na papahalagan!

ingat ka palagi mamaw! mwaaaaah!!!

…Thanks a lot for the new-found friendship! I hope this will last beyond cyberspace!

01
May

1st of May

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Categories: Sa AdLaw-AdLaw

Time check…02:45..Yeah, it’s early in the morning and I am still awake.  Just finished analysing part of my data and organizing my files.  I don’t worry that much sleeping so early in the morning for I still get 8 hours of sleep for my wake up time now is at 10 or 11 am.

I am just so happy, for I was able to accomplish the things that I planned for today and made me feel so productive even if I multitasked.  I am quite good with multi-tasking (Gemini yata to! hehe)… The only formula that I cannot have it perfected is to incorporate sleeping in my multitasking chuva… If that time comes, then maybe I will win a prize, Nobel perhaps!

I should not forget to mention the people who are so dear to me for making my 1st of May an inspiring one…Had a long talk with Ate Janet about anything! It gives me additional energy for the day when I woke up with a lot of text messages to read, no matter what the message is! Hehehe.. Ate Quim relayed a very exciting info and of course she never forgets to remind how they love me! There goes my Ate Hula with some warnings on her YM and Ate Nenet with some updates on her trip.  And before going to bed now…I learned that Ate Judai, Kai and Onnie are gonna play badminton and reminding me that I will be home soon! I miss my Nanay’s messages ..wala daw sya load now..hehhehe…

One more thing! I am really surprised with Ate Hula’s comment for me which is in the form of a poem! She made it in less than half an hour, or even less! And it’s really, really well written! I am so thankful for such masterpiece which made me teary-eyed while running my analysis…It’s such a blessing to meet such kind of friend!

That’s all folks for 1st of May…tulog na ako..2nd of May na pala…:D

01
May

The Potter’s Wheel

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Categories: El FaVoRitO and ReFLeCtioNs

I found this piece of work by Marilyn Ferguson (2005) so inspiring! I just went through a storm lately.This one really helped me to see the rainbow and find the strength to move on!

THE POTTER’S WHEEL

When you’re troubled and discouraged
In the darkness of the night
When obstruction clouds your vision
And you just can’t see the light.

When life’s trials overcome you
And you have nowhere to turn
When you’ve reached the very bottom
There are lessons you must learn.

For the clay is being molded
It’s been twisted, pulled and tossed
It’s been rolled and it’s been pounded
Till the ego has been lost.

He will put you through the furnace
You’ll be tested to the brim
Your life will be in pieces
Till you give your soul to Him.

From blemish to perfection
His hands will form the clay
This human piece of rubble
Must let God have His way.

When you come to Him all battered
In the form of mortal man
When you cry to Him in mercy
You will find the Potter’s hand.

He will grind you, mold and chisel
The friction you will feel
Till He gently carves and shapes you
Upon the Potter’s wheel.

17
Mar

The return of hypothalamus..

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Categories: Sa AdLaw-AdLaw

I’m back!

When was the last time I wrote a blog? Seems like centuries ago..Heehehhe..

Weeeeeee…It’s 2009! Well..i had a nice New Year celebration with my foster family – Kuya Butz, Ate Mae and Ate Tina.. We had a delightful dinner and bottles of champagne to meet the New Year! I was really amazed by the fireworks which were displayed at the neighbourhood. One thing remarkable is the Austrian custom of having miniature pigs (figurines) being decorated on the tables or given to love ones on New Year’s Eve as symbol of good luck. I received one plus a chocolate!

Then I have bouts of exams and presentations for the rest of the month…Grrrr…

February…Heart’s month…Yeah, Valentine’s Day…Shops were decorated red…I thought I’d be spending it here in my room…alone with a bottle of wine…But hey! Got a rose from Ate Nora! Had dinner with Ate Nora, Kuya Rufi (official photographer), Monet and Ate Nona (the host).The night won’t be complete without a bottle of wine! And to make the celebration perfect, we watched a movie- Sweet Home Alabama! Love the story of it.

Most of the students were enjoying the semester break on Feb…but not me…not us, who are non-German speaking students in our Institute for we have to attend the Biostatistics special class…Special since it is offered in English.Quite tedious but in the end, I learned a lot.And I fell in love with…SAS!Weeeeeeeee!!! Plus! We had fun time with the snow and filled our stomach with sushi after the exam..

Even if it’s semestral break, I still had the chance to play badminton at Maxx Sports Center, though I have to pay a li’l bit more than what I’m paying at the UniversitätssportInstitut (USI-University Sports Insitute).But it’s worth the fee for Austrian national players are there teaching you the skills.And the bonus? Me and Jackie (my badminton buddy) watched a match between the Austrian and Malaysian players.

Now, it’s March…Had a share of frustration since I wasn’t able to register in one of the courses.But I am now into an exciting course which is Tropical Livestock Husbandry.I am looking forward to this coming Friday, for we will be having a 2-day field trip, all-expenses to be paid by the Institute! We will be visiting farms outside Vienna!!! I feel like a kid in the kindergarten! Hahah…So excited to see the cows..the horses (Lippizan, *wink*) and more!!!

Saturday mornings will be for my badminton class! It’s at a different venue and of course a new coach. I miss my coach before and the hall where I used to play…But these are some changes that I can’t avoid…I have to enrol for Sat classes so there would be no conflict with my academic chuva..heheh…I’ve neva forgetten that I’m here to learn.. :D The good news with these changes is that there are more people in this class.So far I met a number of good friends..Hopefully in the coming Saturdays better opponents…hehhehe..

This month, I am also getting busier with my thesis. I’m still on my data analysis…I need to concentrate more so I will be home soon!!!! I should learn to set aside my excitement to be home!

It’s gonna be two weeks and it’ll be April! May…June..I’m counting! ..I’ll be home soon…..

27
Dec

My Piece of Cake

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Categories: LiFe ChUVa and Uncategorized

A Piece of Cake !

Sometimes we ask ourselves: What did I do to deserve this?
Why does GOD let these things happen to me?

Here is the explanation…

Daughter tells her mother how everything is going wrong for her; she failed her math exam, her boyfriend just dumped her, her best friend does not want her.

In times so bad, the good mother knows just the thing to cheer up her daughter…
I will make a delicious cake for you…
saying so the mother hugged her daughter and walked her into the kitchen, while her daughter attempted to smile.

While the mother prepared the utensils and ingredients, the daughter sat across the counter.
Her mother asks her ‘Sweetheart would you like a piece of cake?’

The daughter replies, ‘Sure Mom, you know how I love cake!’

‘Alright’ the mother said, ‘drink some of this cooking oil.’
Shocked, the daughter responded, “what, no way!!!”
‘How about a couple of raw eggs?’ to this the daughter responded, “no way!”
‘How about some flour?’ no mom, “I will be sick!”

The mother responded, ‘All of these are uncooked and taste bad, but if you put them together, THEY MAKE A DELICIOUS CAKE!!!’

GOD works the same way. When we ask ourselves why he makes us go through these difficult times, we don’t realize what/where these events lead us to. Only he knows and he will not let us fall. We don’t need to settle for the raw ingredients, trust in him and see the fantastic thing come about!

God loves us so much…
He sends us lovely flowers every spring…
He makes the sun rise every morning…
Anytime you need to talk, he is there to listen…
He can live anywhere, but he chose to live in your heart!!!

And keep the HOPE that one day, your day is
“A piece of CAKE!!!”

Have a great day… Oops I also mean have a great CAKE!!!

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04
Dec

Finally!

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Categories: In Harmony

Finally…

…we were reunited- me, Ate Rina and Ate Michelle! With the help of the messenger!  After a long wait that the three of us will be able to chat together, today- 04 December 2008 it happened!

Talking to them brought me back to the good old days that we shared…and recollect the very first time we met…

I’ll start with Ate Rina…It was in February 1995 when my Kuya’s in ATEP (now Kanlaon) dorm had their practice at the arena in preparation for a rodeo competition to be held in Dumaguete.  I was there in the arena to watch my Kuya’s play and I also started to throw some lassos that time hoping to learn the sport.  Ate Rina arrived riding a red scooter! One of my Kuyas told me that she is one of the players. Gosh, she must be so good in playing rodeo.  I was quiet intimidated so, I climbed up the corral and sat there so she could not see me playing.. :)

With Ate Michelle… it was August 1994. I joined the tryout for a volleyball team for the intramural games.  She was not our coach then.  When the coach had the final list of players and fortunately I was one of them, Ate Mich (this is how I fondly call her) approached me.  I can still imagine how she stood so tall (she’s really tall) in front of me…and me feeling so small…She asked me a few questions which I timidly answered.

I never met these two guys again until July 1995, when we are preparing for the rodeo competition as one of the school’s anniversary activities.  At that time, I was enlisted in the Bison Cubs which is sort of a beginners’ team next to the elite Wild Bisons in which Ate Rina and Ate Mich belonged to.  So we sort of get to know each other better during times of practice and even after-practice sessions- night picnics at the beach with music and food a-plenty! (hahha..Menu out of the meat from their slaughter class! So, yummy!)

Ate Mich became my coach (volleyball women) in 1995 intramural games while Ate Rina is with the  softball team.  We won the championship game and so with Ate Rina’s team.  Fortunately, I was drafted to join the school’s team for the regional SCUAA meet! I never won Tatay and Nanay’s approval to join the team until they had a talk with Ate Mich- the captainball, over the phone! Ate Mich did a great task in answering all my parents’ queries.  And I owe her a lot for doing such a good work! I really had my first athletic meet so unforgettable with these two fantastic big sisters of mine.  It was in Naval, Biliran! (Photo above was taken during the 1995 Regional SCUAA Athletic Meet at Biliran)

I never expected that our friendship extends beyond rodeos and athletic meet thingy.  We became such best of friends that we were always there for each other (which I believe, we’ll always be).  We shared our joys and troubles.  We had a lot of slumber parties! Got inspired with our crushes (the kilig times), celebrated when one is in in-love mode and got heartaches when one is broken-hearted! Enjoyed the kantahan sessions- for we almost have the same taste for songs and bands! (Eraserheads- that time! And Remember me this way of Ate Rina..)

Oh, I should not forget to mention also that once, they do check if I am really attending my classes.  For one day they found out that I am just sleeping in my room and meet them at the fastfood for lunch as if I just came from my class! Whew! With these Ate’s, I cannot skip classes!
Time came when they graduated and things were not the same anymore.  Ate Rina became so engaged with her business while Ate Michelle settled down.  We seldom see each other and there were also times when our communication waned.  In addition, I also found new friends and been to places. But these never changed the sincere friendship that we shared and the things that I learned from them.

Since the day they left school, there was never a chance that the three of us had a get-together.  From then on, I yearned for the day that we will be reunited and today it happened! It’s really heart-warming to hear updates from each other and once again see their smiles!

I am so thankful to God for this chance, for Ate Rina and Ate Mich will always be a part of who am I now and who will I be…

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